emo nemo no more please

Today wasnt as bad as i thought, skipped school and went riding with jolian, batam and khaidan. Just ride around and chilled out till 2 when dan and I cabbed back to dan's place to play games. Sop joined us later and then now im back at home at 11pm. How i wish life was just like that everyday. I really dont want to talk about this anymore but its killing me. Im sad and just sad. Drowning myself with things i shouldnt be doing to cover this pain but when im at home, i just cant stop thinking about things that make me sad, i just cant. This is very unlike me but sometimes when you lose something or someone important, you'll kind of give everything up. This just aint cool.