welcome to my life

My life is full of gym and dragon boat and it wont end. Met liangfu for dinner today and ate curry fish head downstairs. I feel so lethargic nowadays and i'm really not prepared for the coming dragon boat fest if im going for the race. Im still short and i'll live with it, God has his plans and it will be good. I am not what i used to be, i used to laugh at everything i could laugh at or make fun of everything that i can make fun of but now i'm just a quiet lonely boy living in this world of agony. I cant jump or smile at jokes cause the joke was on me. You were part of my smile and thoughts but now seems like everything is just black and white, thoughts becomes negative, smiles becomes fake and everything crashed at the very moment you left. Please set me free from this misery and all you need to do is talk to me. The barrier of awkwardness has been built the moment you left but i've break it, its your turn, take a step forward and bring a genuine smile to my face.